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Xeden
Player: @Two Across
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Knight Errant
Character Build
Origin: Mutation
Archetype: Blaster
Security Level: 50+
Biographical Data
Real Name: Christian F. James
Known Aliases: X, Edenfire, Ebon-Zero (sometimes shortened to "Ebon-0" or "Zero")
Age: 36
Gender: Male
Species: Human Mutant
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Birthdate: 01/06/1985
Birthplace: Fossberg, Siren's Call, Paragon City
Relatives: Elena James (mother, deceased), Michael James (father, deceased), Lia MacKay (sister), Jordan James ([ex]wife), Lora Emi (adopted daughter, status unknown)
Characteristics
Height: 6"1'
Weight: 200lbs.
Eyes: Blue
Hair: Red
Complexion: Pale/Fair
Physical Build: Average Muscular
Physical Features: Various Scars (neck/clavicle, right bicep, right wrist, left pectoral, left abdomen, back/left scapular, right thigh, right ankle, deep running scars and tissue trauma to both forearms following the destruction of protective runes)
Status
Alignment:
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Neutral

Reputation:
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Imposing

Identity: Public
Years Active: 2002 - 2012
Base of Operations: N/A
Citizenship: American, currently in hiding in the Rogue Isles
Education: High School GED
Occupation: Former Hero
Marital Status: Single, Divorced
Known Powers and Abilities
Projection and manipulation of kinetic energy, flight, minor soul magics.
Equipment and Paraphernalia
N/A
Attributes
 
   Strength
   Endurance
 
   Agility
   Speed
 
   Fighting
   Projectiles
 
   Durability
   Resistance
 
   Intelligence
   Psyche
 
   Intuition
   Charisma
 
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Personality

Xeden is a confused soul with a twisted dichotomy. He once strived and yearned to be- as he put it- "someone others want to aspire to be or aspire to be better than". Doing either became more likely the more you know of him and his challenging personality. As hardworking a hero as any you could have found within Paragon City and always one to find the best option possible in any situation. Unfortunately his noted history with personal loss has rendered him all too willing to do the wrong things for the right reasons in order to protect those who are left.

He sees himself however as expendable. In truth Xeden is a top-class hero, but a horrible person. In his efforts to protect the ones he loves he has made deals with devils, both proverbial and literal, and bloodied his hands beyond redemption (at least in his own heart and mind) with his actions. Despite knowing his errors and hoping that one day he can be better than the mistakes he made, he knows that if needed he will make those mistakes as often as he needs to if it makes the difference.


Biography

Early Career

Christian James was fathered by a virtuous woman and the murderous man she tried to rehabilitate. At one year old, Elena James knew her dream was not to be, Christian James was left in the protective care of the Paragon Police Department, and Michael James was a man on the lamb after committing one more murder that left his son without parents any longer. But to young Christian, the police officers he now lived with both in and out of the precincts were his family. Not long after he was up and walking, he was helping deliver evidence and letters and memos around the bullpens. At the age of 15 his mutant abilities to absorb and disperse kinetic energy manifested, resulting in a tragic accident that left three of his “fellow officers" hospitalized and a cafeteria table in splinters. Chris was left with no choice but to wear bulky gauntlets which helped contain the energy from spewing forth randomly.

At age 18, he deployed into the city as a full-fledged hero. His first day: the Rikti invasion of Paragon. Chris, now codenamed “Edenfire” was patrolling Brickstown when the first dropships arrived, and helped to lead the inmates of the Ziggursky prison in a rally to push the invaders out of the area. Successfully they worked to hold back the threat, as temporary and short-lived as it was. It was at this time that Chris first came to believe that, given the time and reason, any form of peace was possible. Even that between those labeled as "heroes" and "villains".

A year after that he met his father again, now returned to his codename of “Bludgeon”, near his old family’s home in Siren’s Call. After a knockdown/drag-out fight that left the apartment in shambles, Chris’ cracked gauntlets shattered, expelling enough energy to nearly kill Bludgeon, and might even have had not been for the small black jewel that fell from Bludgeon’s grasp. This was the Tribuo Animus, an Orenbegan artifact which pulled Chris’ soul from his body and left him comatose for a time.


The Chaser Knights

Nursed back to health by Azuria, Edenfire now sported a much more uncaring attitude and struck out on his own and adopted a new name after decidedly choosing he was now “ex-Eden”. Despondent and confused, he traveled across the city as a monster hunter before heading east. Chris found a newfound empathy for the zone of “Dark” Astoria and its tragic history. While walking the cemetery one evening he was ambushed by the monster Adamastor and nearly killed as the creature threw his body into a ravine. Cut open and empty of one himself, the terrified and tortured souls used his unique state to plead for sanctuary and he gave it that they might both escape Astoria alive. En route back to Paragon Chris was found and aided by a clan of knights, known as the Chasers, who fended off the hounding Pantheon and taught him to control his mutant powers without the gauntlets. Over time, Chris stayed with them and learned their ways and was even gifted a set of armor for himself modeled after their styles which he keeps to this day.

But this newfound sense of belonging was cut down as the Pantheon regrouped their masses, Adamastor included, and laid siege to the Chaser Knight camps. After a grueling and protracted set of battles the knights fell to the superior numbers of the Banished Pantheon and mighty Lord Norxethan ordered Chris to escape back to Paragon to ensure their legacies survived. He did so after saving and befriending two young knights, Aryn Fal and Lin Adence, whom he set up with new homes in Paragon.

Near this time, Xeden became a wanderer with no place to call home despite his ties with the PPD. Luck brought him to fall in with a group of wayward heroes and superpowered metas who banded together in an abandoned warehouse, led by a man named Erik Jameson. It was here that Chris would become close friends with a number of their members, meet a woman named Jordan Murphy whom he would fall in love with, and come to find out he had a half-sister named Lia MacKay. With their help he was reunited with his soul, later inking runes into his arms which acted as magic wards to keep it inside of his body after the others from Astoria were sent onwards to their afterlife.


The Refuge & the Initiative


And we sail out on orders from him but we find
The maps he sent to us don't mention lost coastlines

- Okkervil Rover, "Lost Coastlines"


Xeden leads the Lightning Strike Initiative (art by Bakart)

As Erik left the city on business, he placed Xeden in temporary charge on account of his experience in the field despite being outranked by a half-dozen other members. During this time the Warehouse and its member base found itself embroiled in a conflict which left many of their number wounded, hospitalized, and terrified of the enemy supergroup which hounded it. And though Xeden knew he was outmatched physically, he managed to outwit the villains into a stalemate. His comm was never turned off and he was never far from those he now watched over. He rarely slept so that he could ensure those he watched were safe. When Erik returned and was made aware of the events that took place in his absence he made it clear that it was not Chris' actions which kept their friends and family safe, but Erik's decision to place Chris in charge. Angered that his actions were looked upon as so little, Lia and Jordan left the warehouse with the intent to create their own group and place Chris as the leader.

Reluctant to take such a position and seeing his previous tenure as a failure to lead, Chris initially refused until Lia and Jordan, now his girlfriend, revealed to him that nearly two-thirds of the warehouse had left with them, looking toward him as their new leader.

The Midnight Refuge was born.

As the new group was largely the membership of the old, very few of them were in a position to maintain peace and safety among them. To this end, Chris took the few with the experience enough to defend their new home and christened them his "knights", in honor of his fallen comrades. They served well and Chris came to see them all as his greatest comrades, but in the face of looming threats such as the Praetorians he knew they needed more. Splitting the Refuge into two wings, offensive and defensive, the Lightning Strike Initiative was created to act as the heroes Xeden knew were needed in a time of coming war. Journeying into the world with guns blazing, LSI mounted support and numbers which effectively turned the tide against their personal enemies with the Refuge and assisted other groups in Paragon with larger threats, including the Empire of Atlantis and Global Defense Force. Their actions served to make them infamous among their fellow heroes and fought on the frontlines against the Praetorian army, as well as carrying out insurgencies against the Rikti and Banished Pantheon.

The return of Bludgeon and mounting enemy numbers in the face of their new-found public face wore on Xeden however. Following the arrival of his two children, Faith and Jeremy, with his now-wife Jordan, Chris began to see that he was becoming a general to his friends and family but they were not his soldiers. he put his tactical mind to use solving problems in less-than-heroic ways. In order to keep his people safe against the actions of their enemies, Chris assembled a third group which few more than the members of it would know of: the Ebon Knights; covert operative Sideways, marksman Bankshot, and mercenary twins Siren and Siryn. Wielding this red right hand, Xeden began operations to assassinate high-priority enemy targets, as well as many other clandestine activities, given kill orders by Xeden himself in order to weaken opposition. The position of leader and act of being surrounded by so many loved ones forced Chris into a position where he could not bear to lose anyone, and he crossed the line.


The Hyori

I know I deserve to suffer,
I've earned to be alone
But like a thief who sells a lover
For a handful of shiny stones
So I wrote you a letter
You won't find until I'm gone
For a song given to the devil
He's come to take me home

- Shaman's Harvest, "The End Of Me"


The Hyori possesses Christian (art by Bakart)

But the Atlanteans had found an enemy of their own with the demonic, otherworldly Hyori- a beast from the Shadow Shard which had been accidently brought back to Primal Earth, trapped in a bow. Possessing the young Atlantean girl Coraluna, the king Leviathas and his queen Neredia did their best to keep the girl safe as the monster took control. Intervening just in time, Xeden managed to persuade the Hyori into taking himself as a vessel in her place, citing his more matured mutant powers, position of leadership, and precarious soul as greater selling points. The fiend agreed, but found out too late that Chris’ will was more indomitable than it had assumed, that that the wards he had inked into his skin months before kept the Hyori from escaping him. It almost consumed him, had not been for the forces of Atlantis rallying to lend support and an endearing hug from the child it had attempted to take, Coraluna. Chris accepted it as his burden to bear at the expense of his own mental wellbeing to keep others safe. His actions, he would later be told, made him a legend in Atlantis and a statue of his likeness was erected in the great city- the first of any who hailed from the land above.

But these heroic times did not forever last. Despite the Initiative helping to lead the charge against Cole’s Praetorian forces, a number of those in the Refuge were not so keen to fight on the frontlines as Chris and the Initiative did and they began to turn away from him, citing his time away fighting as an absence of leadership on a personal level. Some said he abandoned them. Some said he had gone too far from being the man he used to be. Others found new leaders to follow. But others openly protested against him in attempts to sway the popular vote as Jordan and Lia had done for him. When these tactics failed, rumors and hate-speak began, slandering Chris in desperate attempts at self-adulation. Anything from letting his friends become injured that he might show up as the hero to unspeakable gossip that he abused his wife.

Angry and feeling betrayed by the people he bled and fought for so long to protect, Chris began to waver. The Hyori slowly found a hold to grasp on to and Chris pushed away from his friends. He continued to lead until after Praetoria had been waylaid and then, with no war to fight, he silently dismantled LSI and the Refuge, heartbroken. Xeden worked as a free-agent in Paragon, silently manipulating things in the Rogue Isles through the Ebon Knights and his favored proxy, Sideways.


The Axiom Guard


I never claimed to be a saint
My own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

- Stone Sour, "Snuff"


Xeden during the Praetorian War (art by Bakart)

The rumors coming from Ouroborus and the Menders that the ever-mysterious “Coming Storm” was fast-approaching sent Xeden into protective-mode though, and he expanded again; this time he approached Vanguard, proposing a worldwide union of Heroes and Villains, inspired by the first outing as a hero in Brickstown he was involved in years before, united under one flag when the world as a whole was threatened: the Axiom Guard. To fight together when separate they would surely fall.

Sanctioned through the United Nations, Xeden was charged with assembling the Axiom Guard and it worked to unite odd pairings, to a degree. As offers of aide began to flood in, Xeden was shocked to notice that all of them had come from mercenary and villain groups. The heroes of Paragon were nowhere to be seen.

In fear that the group would be utilized for worse than it was incepted for, the UN pulled the plug on the project and Xeden- disappointed as his dream fell apart due to the lack of assistance from the fellow heroes he fought for so long beside- withdrew.

Following his actions with the Ebons and the crumble of the Axiom Guard, Christian James disappeared from public view, exiling himself from Paragon City and taking up residence on a houseboat adrift near Port Oakes, feeling betrayed by the heroes he once fought beside. The only evidence of his departure, a note left behind;



I spent years giving everything to this City. This World. Her people. This dimension. I gave up more than most of you will ever know, just so I could do my job, and I did it without hesitating. I did it because I lived to help, because I wanted the children to look back and realize that because of my work, they wouldn't have to bear the burdens I passed down to them. But I see now that when it comes to them seeing that happen when it's most important now, fewer and fewer of you all understand or realize the pertinence of any of it.

I made my deals with devils- many of them. I died for my duty- twice now. I've lead when others wouldn't or couldn't- thrice over. And now even though more and more of you seem to be on the same page as to what needs to happen next, so very few of you are understanding enough to see it through, and those of you who are come from places I look at and can't help but wonder what form of legacy I am now forging.
Would Norxethan be proud? Would my lineage disown me?
I'm sorry. But anymore, I can't fight for this city. Or this world, or certainly her people. I'll fight because it means my loved ones live another generation. I have grown far too weary of giving all I can, and watching time and again as those I called allies or friends turn their backs on me without warning or just cause. I did nothing to you. Any of you.
And yet even now I know I would keep you all from burning in the embers.
Call me a liar.
I'm not as bad as you all want to think I am.

-X


2019


Cause this isn't life, and I know that I chose it
But I can't stand waking up and nobody knows it
I'll never find the strength to change what I need
Is this who I'll always be?

- Amigo the Devil, "Another Man's Grave"


A homeless Chris in the Rogue Isles (art by @Ginger)

In the time after, the name Xeden became a short-lived tabloid headline; "Where Has Xeden Gone?" "Xeden Presumed Dead" "Christian James, Sighted in Warburg", etc.. But as the world moved on, new heroes would emerge to fill his void. Presumed dead, Christian spent the interceding years of 2012 through 2019 silently living in the Rogue Isles. Driven slowly mad by the Hyori's influence, his obsession over his own failings, and his deeply-rooted sense of betrayal by the heroes of Paragon City, he kept his head hung low until he became little more than a vagabond- wandering the alleys and backstreets of the Etoile Isles.

Whispers and rumors that the missing hero was seen in the Isles were met with no resolution. Like some Sasquatch of Sharkhead, Christian would vanish for months or longer, sightings and rumors falling silent before the next would crop up and meet a similar fate. A specter of a dead heroic legacy.

Now and more recently, whispers rise again of a disheveled redhead matching Xeden's description. No sign of mutant ability, no trademark knight armor. Just a sad old man, full of resentment.

Appearing sporadically throughout taverns, bars and dives in the Rogue Isles, he was self-medicated and silent at the best of times, angry and cantankerous during the rest.

During rare excursions to the Pocket D, Chris would commonly encounter characters from his past- former friends and allies- from whom he would shy away and hide from out of shame and fear. During one such evening his eye was caught by a woman adorned with Tsoo tattoos. Ignoring her as she passed the first time, the second time triggered his paranoia and he aggressively approached her assuming she was sent by someone to keep tabs on him. Following her down toward the monkey fight cage, the woman truthfully admitted that she had no idea who he was.

This woman was Olivia Chang, former Tsoo from the Isles. Although the two held conversation, Chris' suspicions would not be swayed, and he kept on guard. They would continue to encounter one another from time to time, with her friend Max taking a pointed interest in the tagalong Hyori that was latched to Chris' soul. Noting this, Chris made sure to keep distance from him and his plots.

Slowly, Chris became unwillingly enveloped into Olivia's cadre of friends. With concern of his history as a former hero or the Hyori itself becoming noticed and weaponized by this group from the Rogue Isles, they were kept at an arm's length and treated with degrees of hostility. With the exception of Olivia.

"Liv"- as she was known- was the only one that Chris began to empathize with, sharing with her a shared experience which resulted in them both pushing the world away out of fear. And while he worked to ensure that he never became close to any of the new people passing in and out of his life, he would take the time to help her with shoring up her mental defenses through the lessons learned with his history of shielding himself from the Hyori... which became concerned that Chris may once again begin to crawl out from his isolation.

Feeling the demonic entity stirring, Chris delved more heavily into alcohol. Seeing him so far removed from who he used to be, ex-wife Jordan Murphy would attempt to keep tabs on him. Well-versed in her technopathic powers, Chris did his best to avoid electronics that may be used to track him but was eventually tracked down to his makeshift home- a houseboat off the docks of Port Oakes. Desperate for a way out and unwilling to entrust what his body contained to the Rogues that he had been affiliating with and aware that the Hyori would not allow him to do it himself, Chris asked Jordan to end his life for him (*See the bottom of the "Trivia" section for more on this). Adamantly refusing, she doubled down on her intentions to help rid him of the creature and return him to health.

Chris would admit that even without the Hyori, his actions in Praetoria and involvement in civilian deaths weighed too heavily on his mind. And as it ever did, the Hyori only amplified his negative feelings, but was not the source of them. The reoccurring nightmares and inability to keep the weight of those deaths from burying him was something of his own doing, and even in the times of the Hyori's silence Chris could hear their voices screaming for mercy.

Removing and secluding the Hyori was a nice thought, but it would not improve his mindset.


2020


Who's that yonder all in flames
Dragging behind him a sack of chains
Who's that yonder all in flames
Up jumped the Devil and he staked his claim on me

- Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds, "Up Jumped the Devil


As time went on, Chris was slowly assimilated further into Liv's circle of friends though he never considered them such. The only exception was Liv herself, with whom he felt no pressure to change his ways or speak about his reasons for being so angry. The hostility he felt was one he was welcome to keep, so long as he was not suffering alone.

This was enough of a concern for the Hyori to lash out in defense. Well aware that Chris was too selfless to fight for himself and happy to continue to whittle down his emotions until he was a husk, it also knew that should Chris decide to find a place he belonged, he would fight for it despite his history. Chris never woke up one morning, and the Hyori opened his eyes instead. In control of his body for the first time in years, its initial action was to set fire to the houseboat Chris had made his living on and destroy all that he had in his possession.

Taking flight to Potter's Field cemetery in Sharkshead Isle, it began to bask in and absorb the magical energies that encircled the area thanks to the actions of the Banished Pantheon and Circle of Thorns, leaving a wake of bodies behind it.

Eventually returning to Paragon City, the Hyori would make landfall in Striga Isle to similarly bask in the arcane energies of its cemeteries. It was at this time that the Hyori would find himself being followed by two unlikely individuals; Liv and Max.

As they questioned the Hyori over its intent, a pattern was determined- the Hyori was seeking locations with high magical concentrations in order to further secure itself as in charge of Chris' vessel. And within a few days, the Hyori was moving toward Croatoa.

Olivia and Jordan would rally together to save Chris from the Hyori, with the former using her contacts through the Rogue Isles to put together a team tasked with stopping the Hyori and freeing the body it inhabited- a team that included Adam Fairfield- a former ally of Chris' in the days following the Praetorian War.

Resting at the throne to Jack in Irons, the Hyori was attacked by the assembled force both mentally and physically, with attempts made to appeal emotionally toward the captive Chris. Taken down and backed into a corner, the Hyori... gave up. It was not defeated nor killed. Suspiciously, it retreated back within Chris' soul as he was taken back to Paragon for treatment for the wounds his body suffered. It was at this time that Jordan would enact a plan to extract the Hyori from its vessel using a cloned body which she kept restrained and locked away.

However years with the Hyori exaggerating every synapse response in order to trigger pain had left Chris mute to many sensations. And when the Hyori and that buffer were removed, the sensation of feeling again threw his body into catatonic shock. Stepping on his own two legs again was agony, the breath he drew to his lungs felt like poisonous gas, the hospital room's ambient light was blinding, and any and every sensation upon his skin was like billions of pinpricks. He was treated over the course of several weeks and into months to help reintroduce commonality to his mind.

Which also helped to show Chris just how alone he truly had made himself. Without the Hyori, there was no constant second voice in his head... and nothing to stop him from knowing that the painful memories of what he had done in Praetoria were due to his actions alone, all while the Hyori let him attempt genocide of his own accord.



All of my guilt and the way that I'm built
I don't sleep so well

- Penny and Sparrow, "Gold"


While Jordan's heart came from a place of worry, Chris was entirely too aware that she would continue to expect him to return to an eventual life of peace and without worry, and certainly free of his suicidal ideations. Finally free of the Hyori, he was not free of what being part of the world had led him to do, and would escape the hospital he was being treated in to return to the Rogue Isles. Content to let others he encountered still believe he was a homeless vagabond, in reality Liv had set him up with an apartment in which to live. Allowing himself this small comfort would also lead to him furnishing the place with a collection of books and music which he used to help heal, staring at the nearby ocean through his window to help calm the chaos of his mind.

Despite this development, he continued to dress like a homeless man and leaned into the look to help sell that he had no such dwelling. His self-destructive drinking would continue unimpeded, even with the loss of the Hyori resulting in him being able to handle much less liquor. During one of his first nights back out in the D following his return to the Isles, he would come close to blows with a member of Liv's crew, Deep Six, after he jokingly likened Chris' actions to a knight. The offense he took- unbeknownst to Six- was successfully capped off through gritted teeth, a clenched fist, and two additional shots of Maker's Mark whiskey.


2021


But I was born impatient and I was born unkind
But I refuse to believe I have to be
The same person I was born when I die
Cause change is alright
Change is alright

- Amigo the Devil, "Cocaine and Abel"


(Coming Soon)

Character Themes

@Gossamer Blush- "A Sad Arpeggio" [1]
Michael Salvatori- "Guardian Down" [2]


Character Playlists

Phase 1: "1182 Names" [[3]] - Within; A good man who made all the worst decisions for the best reasons. A tale of a legend who gave his all to a world who turned on him. A story of a hero riddled with demons. A warrior striving to bring happiness, torn asunder and weighed with sorrow.

Phase 2: "1182 Reasons" [[4]] - Within; the damage done by an ancient evil, waves beaten against the stone that is or was a good man. A demon who won by letting good atrophy.

Phase 3: "1182 Bad Dreams" [[5]] - Within; after the dust settles, an old forgotten hero must live with the catastrophes he has created. An effort to come out from the shell he's encased himself within... while attempting to ensure it doesn't happen again.

Phase 4: "1182 Chances" [[6]] - Within; A fear of becoming too normal again. A solitude encroached upon. An introspection on addictions, habits, and their damage done. A first dance. A stern self-reflection.

Phase 5: "3166 Days" - Coming Soon

Phase 6: [TBA]

Phase 7: [TBA]

Trivia

  • Given his Irish heritage, when upset, his voice will give hints of an Irish accent.
  • Christian is a Transformers fan. So much so, he will work lines from any incarnation of the comic, cartoon, or movie into everyday conversation just for his own amusement.
  • Chris' favorite meal is a dish called Poppy-Seed Chicken. He is also a fan of Velveeta Shells and Cheese, and raspberry chocolate chip ice cream.
  • Christian is well-known for his unique and abstract armor designs, all of which handcrafted and designed in his freetime, with the sole exception of his infamous Chaser Armor, which was partially constructed by older armor parts, and partially hand-forged by one of the only surviving Chaser Knights, Aryn Fal, only days prior to the fall of the clan.
  • Chris owns numerous pieces of property across Paragon, including a freighter adrift in Talos Bay he used to make his home on before linking up with his recently-affiliated supergroups, the lands on which the LSI HQ and Midnight Refuge stand, and an apartment in King's Row he hasn't made use of in years.
  • Prior to Sunset, Xeden was one of the higher-decorated Heroes in the City, with a count of almost 1350 badges, medals and accolades.
  • Given his penchant for self-relfection, he has at least one spot in nearly every city in Paragon where he can go to for solitude and quiet.
  • While Xeden continually displays degrees of respect to numerous people, there is only one man he has ever saluted while wearing his Chaser Knight armor. In fact, he specifically changed into the armor to salute him. That man is the singularity now known as Horus, AKA Ra, leader of the Forevermen Coalition, the first group that Chris joined.
  • In one of the traits most people hate about him, Chris hates losing his temper or composure in front of people. Instead of letting his emotions run rampant, he will simply turn and walk away from a conversation or conflict abruptly in order to cool off.
  • Chris (barely) knows how to to play an acoustic guitar. Mostly he just knows a few notes he can piece together into the simplest of tunes.
  • A fan of movie scores and soundtracks, Chris' music collection is vast. He maintains an entire playlist of instrumental and orchestral themes and songs to play for just about any given situation.
  • Chris' favorite bands are Poets Of The Fall, old Finger Eleven, City and Colour and Penny & Sparrow.
  • Christian suffers from a number of mental maladies including Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder following his role in the Praetorian War, emotional repression due to the choices he's made hiding his actions from friends and family for so long out of fear of rejection, and depression spurned by his inability to see the Axiom Guard to fruition. The trauma has also resulted in his asexuality.
  • These actions have also led to Chris experiencing suicidal ideations and attempting suicide on more than one occasion. Though dark in nature and meant to convey how personal his journey and trauma has been to him, this is in no way an attempt to glorify these actions or considerations. If you or someone you know are experiencing the same thoughts, please reach out to someone you love or contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255.

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